*nineteen now*

i turned 19 a fewdays back( my greatest nightmare....). i wasn't really looking forward to my birthday this year b'coz i didn't like the number 19, on my wishy part i wanted to be 18 forever. hee, there's actually a fashion boutique by the name 'forever 18' at wisma and they sell very cool clothes, check at out girls if u've never been there. but i guess nothing is forever, and one gotta move on no matter. this week was really amazing. i had my party at rafflesia( my anut's condo) by the pool and some like 30 people turn up, we had great food, very interesting games( right christon?) and it end off with tricia and i being dung into the pool.... well, i was prepared something like that would happen so i wasn't really caught by surprise.... my uncle, the pastor of jurong church, also was dung into the pool. one of these days, the painful boys, the culprits, are going to get it from him.... hahaha....... then again, my project manager was really sweet. she decided to bring me out to inter-continental hotel for a lunch buffet. two other collegues joined us so the four of us had a hell of a good time trying to fill our tummy with lotsa yummpy delicacies... they had so many cakes, apple crumble pie, green tea and red bean cake, cholocate sweetie, mango delight, strawberry cheesecake, mudpie and many more, i just had to try a little of everything, and ended up filling bloated. i hope i didn't grow an inch fatter. i made sure i worked doubly hard to burn all that calories i consumed.... i must really compliment the olive tree, they served very delicious food! yeah, so i felt really precious to the oligivy, the company who hired me to be their temporary telemarketeer. now i owe them so much, i feel obligated to work for them each time i'm on vacation. hee.... i've never been take so seriously by a company before and it really felt great or maybe i was plain lucky( they told me they do not give temp staffs treat like this and i felt so special). that's about all the highlights of my week. cheers!

back from malacca

hi everyone,
i wonder if anyone still pop by my bloggie..... i haven't been blogging for months due to some personal issue but i'll try alright? ppl, guess what? i just came back from thomson chinese church camp. it was a three days two nights camp, and i actually enjoyed myself surprisingly. well well, i felt very much at home becuase i knew almost everyone there except for the china students from sanyu high sch( oh, that's our own adventist sch for those who do not know). the speaker spoke in chinese and the the topic was on family. i thought that was really practically because nothing beat a solid happy family. the hotel rooms aren't really comfortable( the toilet bowls are leaking and the floor is coated with layers of dusk) and the food was really salty but i took home a lot of lesson from the speaker.
another thing, i'm celebrating my 19th birthday at rafflesia. it's a condominium at bishan. all church members and jc friends are invited! well, if u ask me i'm not really looking forward to turning 19 but life still gotta go on i guess. hope u guys can come k?
cheers!

'all i want for christmas is you'

i haven't been blogging for quite long... by the way i've got myself a new job as a telemarketer at raffles place. it's a stone's throw from boat quay and guess what? i only have to work 4 hours a day..... hee, but the job is kinda boring, making the same kind of phone calls, persuading singaporean to sign up for a free make over... it really feel demoralised when u don't get any deals at all in a day.... some ppl just held the phone and fall asleep (of course they'll get it when the supervisor comes for inspection).... yupie, i've been working there for like 3 weeks already and tomorrow will be the last day for this year, i'll be going back next year. i really like that atmosphere, and ppl who work with me. last time i went to est's house to make caramel and cornflake cookie as well as walnut, almond and coconut cake with chocolate topping. it was a success. we are thinking of selling cookies at anderson next year.... so wish us good luck! also yesterday, we went caroling as a church at yu hua community centre. it was a fantastic experience i must say. although i was pretty late due to the cookie making, i made it in time for the caroling performance and finale.... there was sparkers coming from the stage and snow flying down from the top and everything just made me feel so blessed to be there! christmas is round the corner, i'm hoping that i'll have more exciting experience this year so i'll never forget this 18th christmas of my life... just wish time could slow down around this time! nat gonna be back any time soon too.... i'm so happy, i think some ppl are happy for me too. today aunty peggy asked me whether i'm excited about nat coming him>>> hahaha.... nat if you're reading this: i'm over the moon to know that you're coming back....
before i go wanna wish everyone a merry christmas and join us at jurong sda church on 24th dec 7.15pm if you have nothing to do coz there will be a party going on.....see ay dude!

wh

today's my third day of job hunting with my close freind,estelle... the past two days, i've been to foue season hotel, precious thot, giodanoand hagenzza( opps my spelling sucks!) for interview..... the managers of these companies said that they will inform me if i'm shortlisted but i didn't hear from them. Yesterday, while we were wondering (actually shopping to be more exact), someone approach us to ask if we are interested to be a freelance model... we know nothing much about that but gave our name anywhere.... today we went for the interview and guess what the company said that they are willing and able to spend $2000 to groom us to be model, the grooming include stuffs like catwalking, make-up, dressing and post. sound quite appealing to me at first, but later they said we have to spend $550 on a make-up kit which will belong to us and we will need it when we go for shooting and adversting.... what sounded so crazy to me! i'm not working and they want me to spend so much on make-up.... later in the day i went for another interview at great world city... guess what? this time i was accepted immediately by the manager who even agree to let be have my sat off.... wow! that's so amazing... god is really working in my life. if only he can do the same for my relationship with someone....
now, i really know how hard it is to find a job.... i hope working at wh as a salesgirl won't be too hectic for me, i don't want to end up all haggard.... but for a somehow spenthirft person like me, i think working allows me to have more to spend and learn that money don't come by easily....yup, that's all for today!cheerio*

100 years

like the song '100 years' says when you only got a 100 years to live... Half the time goes by suddenly you're wise, another blink of an eye.... 67 is gone the sun is getting high we're moving on.... life is ever so fast so furious, the pevious moment won't replay no matter how much you long for it to...just like the mrt train, it just go forward and never will return to the previous stop.
the song says 15 is the best because there's still time for you; time to buy and time to lose yourself within a morning star.
i agree with that, and feel like i never want to go old. i want to be 18 forever, want to be in heaven as a youth not as a old woman...heehee, just a silly thought.
maybe when you're on a holiday, you tend to think more, or maybe it's just me, who knows?for now i want to capture every moment of my life and make 18 the best for me... today i woke up to an achy body, i'll never felt so pain and old(because of the pain) in life....
guess what? i went wake boarding yesterday with some church friends and man, it's so cool! i'll never tried something like this before. but i have to confess, i was pretty lousy that day, but pardon me it was my first trial alright? the wake board was really heavy and i didn't have strength to flip it over myself whenever i slip off the rope u see, but uncle John was kind enough to jump into the waters and help me along.... i made some progress slowly and finally did it though it was for a while....
today i when to four season hotel for an interview, they asked me so many questions that i was really sure of but i hope things worked out fine... tomorrow i'll go for more interviews... hopefully i'll be able to work next year, really want to earn so that i've got more to spend.i saw this dress from chaos that really caught my eye and my friend suggested that i put it on. and so i did and it was a perfect fit! the sad thing is that dress cost $109... i know i shouldn't be thinking about it, i'm trying to forget about it coz i can never afford it but it's really gorgeous!alright enough of my craze for the day...

i have fallen...

jehova,
not sure when i felt so alone, so desperate, so helpless the last time, but it's acting again. i've no one else to turn to expect u, i know deep within, only u can lift me up from my 'bottomless pit', only u can feel the void within. i have fallen so badly that i feel so discouraged, what happened to the confidence u gave me? was this a lesson u want me learn from? will i still make it eventually?
i only have six more weeks to the real test! i'm shocked, terrified, anxious, there isn't an exact word to describe my emotions.... but lord, u understand what i'm going through..... u know how badly i want to do well, how badly i wish it didn't turn out the way it did, how ashamed i feel right now. i don't want to screw up anymore, so pls be with me, show me the way, guide me, shower me with wisdom for i can't do anything without u. hear my plea and empower me.
thank you, jesus.

with love, truddy

i saved a life!

haven't blog for such a long long time.... i have my some good excuses but not going say them all. one of them would be i've been really busy these few days. this week has been fabulous for me. it started on sunday when we had a birthday blash at sentosa for gary and louis, i'm glad they enjoyed themselves. i had a hell of a good time too, sth different from my usual mugging on sunday. guess what, i had muscle aches all over the next day from all that water wrestling, racing along the beach with nat, and swimming in the sea. was really 'lucky' that day to be the monkey for a total of 6 times, who can beat that man? i love sentosa. the only thing that ruin my plans was the bad weather, it drizzle all day long and i didn't get ant tan.. sob* then i managed to catch 'fabulous 4' with a special friend on monday, liked the movie. it's thrilling and exciting, good recomendation from me. yesterday which was tuesday i went on a date. shan't go into the details but it really rox! yup, and today i donated blood in sch. my blood grop happens to be o+ which means i'm a universal donor and can save anyone.... i'm so glad i can save a life.... that's all for now! bye!